What I Gained.

I gained. Combination of lots of celebratory weekend eating and drinking, missed workouts because of memorial day, starting a new workout, and making excuses for myself.


I ate great for breakfast, and ate my feelings for lunch. ugh.


Pilates, zumba, a walk with the pup, and a pep talk tonight.


More on how I feel about my gain and my excuses tomorrow.

Feel The Burrrnnnnn

So last night I jogged down to... This building. I'm not sure what to call it actually. It's not a gym or a dance studio or anything. Just kind of an all purpose building in town. It's about a half mile from my house. I was attending my first zumba class in about 2 years. I have only done it once or twice before, but it's offered 4 days a week so close to home that I'm m making it my new workout class.

It was a blast! I've always been more of a contact sports girl, so the dancing is a really nice change of pace. I was definitely getting some muscle fatigue during the workout. Afterwards, they had a Pilates class.... This is where my life changed. It was so difficult, and worked so many great muscles, that I am totally hooked. So I signed up for that too. Yay!

I am not nearly as sore as I thought I would be today.... Which in my experience means that tommorrow morning I will be stiff as a board! Gonna try and walk the pup and get a good stretch in today to lessen tommorrows pain.

Pizza and wine with the nursing girls tonight!

Weekend. Was. Gorg.

The weekend was amazzzinnngggg. So nice out. I love sunshine. I had all the windows open and aired the house out. Yay. I managed to get the entire kitchen swept and mopped and cleaned up. It is now dirty again. Of course. I brought the pups cage down to the basement because she hasn't been in it in months. Lunch was Trader Joe's Wild Mushroom and Black Truffle Flatbread. OH. MY. GOODNESS. So delish. I had a salad with mushrooms, balsamic, lemon and olive oil as well. Then it was off to the city for the evening. I got snacky while I was getting ready so I had a popsicle and... a cocktail.

The city was greattttt. I took exacty zero photos. Korean pulled pork bbq tacos with homemade pickled jalepenos and cabbage slaw. Garlicky french fries. Martinis. Extra dirty. We walked from bar to bar all night. I love that. It's too bad my dog is more like a horse or I would consider moving to the city.

The next morning, we took the pups for brunch. I was terrified because I was pretty sure my dog was going to go a little nuts and misbehave. She didn't. So well behaved. It was super amazing. Must do it again. More city walking. Then a quick nap and off to Laur's for wedding talk and about 11 bottles of wine. And the boys made us stromboli's. 




So I am officially -27 points in the red right now. Must be on plan and be in workout city the rest of the week. I changed my WI day back to fridays so I have all week to make up for my weekend damage. Mondays were not working out. Zumba and pilates tonight maybe?

Belated spring cleaning

Woke up early this morning, made a bacon, avocado, and tomato sandwich on seeded multigrain. Not very point friendly, but absolutely delicious and filling.
It's yard sale day here in town... And while Ziva is outside enjoying the people watching, I have a ton of half finished projects that need finishing. And of course, it's gorgeous out.

Sorry the picture is a little ugly... But it was delicious!

Puppy playdate and a new veggie.

Beautiful afternoon, and the pups next door wanted to play!
I went to the produce outlet on the way home and bought- kale, bananas, lettuce, mushrooms, lemons, limes, tomatoes, cucumbers, celery ... Other stuff I can't think of. AND TURNIPS.
When I was home last weekend, my aunt and uncle from Colorado had come to visit. I hadn't seen them in 10 years, and they have a beautiful garden. Last time I went, they said I ate almost a whole crops worth of turnips! Raw! The ones I bought today were just as delicious. Peeled, a little salt, voila! The outer parts are mild and the middles are spicy, like a radish!
Along with two turnips, I had a tomato, mozzarella, and basil pesto panini on a delicious whole grain bread from Trader Joes.
Tonight I'm staying in with the pup and my dvr. And a vodka soda. Mostly good for my waistline, very good for my mind.

Day 1....A New Beginning!...?

This is it. Today I stop making excuses and start making things happen. I can't keep thinking that I can "slip up" 5 days a week and still lose weight. Or feel any better. So today, I change. 


It sounds a little cliche, I know. But seriously, I need to get my shit together. I used to be in shape, could feel great with 5 hours of sleep a night, my head was clear, I enjoyed delicious foods that weren't dripping with grease. I was happy. I was smart. I was funny. I was really exceptionally good looking. Haha I kid, I kid. But you know what the worst part is? 


I STILL AM ALL THESE THINGS! I just don't feel that way all the time. And it's no one's fault but my own. No sad story about a verbally abusive boyfriend or a lifetime of being overweight. So I have no excuses. Now on to deliciousness. 

This is... was... My beautiful breakfast. That I dropped on my way into work. So it's less beautiful now. It's Greek yogurt, Trader Joes Mango Passion Granola, Chia seeds, and frozen blueberries. I forgot nuts or the sunflower seed butter that I bought last night.. But I had to sneak around my kitchen this morning so I wasn't on my A game. More on that later. I use frozen instead of fresh fruits in my breakfasts usually because I don't eat until I get to work, so they have about an hour to defrost. And they are just as delicious as far as I can tell. Always unsweetened, organic if I can find them.




Andd now I need to get back to work.

Oh hello delicious salad

This is lunch. Yay. And probably part of dinner bc its enormous.

Nommmmm

This was saturdays breakfast. Yayyyy for me getting in one halfway healthy meal a week. This is kashi blueberry waffles, Greek yogurt, blueberries, Chia seeds, and a little syrup. I really didn't even need the syrup because the blueberries were so sweet and delicious!

Welllll last week didn't go so well. Turns out when a bunch of your friends are all getting married in the same summer, you lose control over your life a little. No weight gain, but wooowwww have I been eating shit and drinking too much. I really need to phase out alot of my social drinking. I was in an awful mood tuesday and ended up doing shots and being out til 5 AM. Most drunk I've been in a long time. 

Annnddd I'm a little ashamed. Spring classes are done, I have some online classes I'm taking over the summer, and then I'll be back full swing into clinicals and ridiculousness. The girls who took pediatrics and critical care this semester said it was TERRIBLE. Hardest thing ever. So I have that to look forward to next spring.

That being said, I need to have my life together BEFORE fall classes starts. I really am starting over. I feel like I don't know myself anymore. I've always been happy with who I am, confident in what I do, and the last couple of years have really shaken that. I won't go into the details now, but it's just been one blow after another, and keeping myself and my family and friends afloat has taken everything out of me. I need to get a grip.