Puppy playdate and a new veggie.

Beautiful afternoon, and the pups next door wanted to play!
I went to the produce outlet on the way home and bought- kale, bananas, lettuce, mushrooms, lemons, limes, tomatoes, cucumbers, celery ... Other stuff I can't think of. AND TURNIPS.
When I was home last weekend, my aunt and uncle from Colorado had come to visit. I hadn't seen them in 10 years, and they have a beautiful garden. Last time I went, they said I ate almost a whole crops worth of turnips! Raw! The ones I bought today were just as delicious. Peeled, a little salt, voila! The outer parts are mild and the middles are spicy, like a radish!
Along with two turnips, I had a tomato, mozzarella, and basil pesto panini on a delicious whole grain bread from Trader Joes.
Tonight I'm staying in with the pup and my dvr. And a vodka soda. Mostly good for my waistline, very good for my mind.

Day 1....A New Beginning!...?

This is it. Today I stop making excuses and start making things happen. I can't keep thinking that I can "slip up" 5 days a week and still lose weight. Or feel any better. So today, I change. 


It sounds a little cliche, I know. But seriously, I need to get my shit together. I used to be in shape, could feel great with 5 hours of sleep a night, my head was clear, I enjoyed delicious foods that weren't dripping with grease. I was happy. I was smart. I was funny. I was really exceptionally good looking. Haha I kid, I kid. But you know what the worst part is? 


I STILL AM ALL THESE THINGS! I just don't feel that way all the time. And it's no one's fault but my own. No sad story about a verbally abusive boyfriend or a lifetime of being overweight. So I have no excuses. Now on to deliciousness. 

This is... was... My beautiful breakfast. That I dropped on my way into work. So it's less beautiful now. It's Greek yogurt, Trader Joes Mango Passion Granola, Chia seeds, and frozen blueberries. I forgot nuts or the sunflower seed butter that I bought last night.. But I had to sneak around my kitchen this morning so I wasn't on my A game. More on that later. I use frozen instead of fresh fruits in my breakfasts usually because I don't eat until I get to work, so they have about an hour to defrost. And they are just as delicious as far as I can tell. Always unsweetened, organic if I can find them.




Andd now I need to get back to work.

Oh hello delicious salad

This is lunch. Yay. And probably part of dinner bc its enormous.

Nommmmm

This was saturdays breakfast. Yayyyy for me getting in one halfway healthy meal a week. This is kashi blueberry waffles, Greek yogurt, blueberries, Chia seeds, and a little syrup. I really didn't even need the syrup because the blueberries were so sweet and delicious!

Welllll last week didn't go so well. Turns out when a bunch of your friends are all getting married in the same summer, you lose control over your life a little. No weight gain, but wooowwww have I been eating shit and drinking too much. I really need to phase out alot of my social drinking. I was in an awful mood tuesday and ended up doing shots and being out til 5 AM. Most drunk I've been in a long time. 

Annnddd I'm a little ashamed. Spring classes are done, I have some online classes I'm taking over the summer, and then I'll be back full swing into clinicals and ridiculousness. The girls who took pediatrics and critical care this semester said it was TERRIBLE. Hardest thing ever. So I have that to look forward to next spring.

That being said, I need to have my life together BEFORE fall classes starts. I really am starting over. I feel like I don't know myself anymore. I've always been happy with who I am, confident in what I do, and the last couple of years have really shaken that. I won't go into the details now, but it's just been one blow after another, and keeping myself and my family and friends afloat has taken everything out of me. I need to get a grip.

Chaos

<p>I'm embarrassed. My is in complete and utter shambles and I'm just content to let it crumble around me. My room is a disaster. Going to the bathroom in the middle of the night is a risky endeavor, as their are piles of clothes and shoes and various odds and ends everywhere. It's gross. I hate it. And I need to do something about it. I could have been robbed and would never know. The rest of the house is in no better shape. There is a couch in my kitchen (I'll explain later), dishes in the sink, wine glasses everywhere. I hate it. I need to fix it. I'm going to break it up into small tasks so it's less overwhelming.

In addition, my body and I are at odds. I am exponentially gaining weight. I hate it. I know why. I have been going out every night and drinking and eating in excess. So I need to get serious about losing weight. I'm tired of hating my body. I'm going to start getting up early to workout, eating breakfast, no Carbs at lunch (we order out every day and I eat horribly), and making my dinner veggie loaded. Also, no more eating out just for the hell of it.

Ready, set, go.

Oh heyyy!! Long time no see!

So so so sorry that it's been so long. School has been crazy, my nails are splitting and peeling all over the place, and my personal life is in a shambles. My nails are finally at a semi respectable length, and green is my favorite color, so I decided some St. Patty's Day nails to cheer myself up! I used:
- Revlon Posh (my new favorite green, great 2 coat coverage, really easy to work with.)
- LA Glitter Addict in Purge
- China Glaze Fast Forward Top Coat
- Bundle Monster Plate BM03
- Konad Special Polish in White

 It's so festive!! I have a big party to go to this weekend, I need to find some green clothes to match my mani!